Appreciation

I had the opportunity to travel to Iowa City for a short weekend getaway. A solo trip- just me. No kids. No husband. One of my dear friends from college is having a baby, and I decided to make an overnight out of attending her shower.

I got to spend some time driving around campus, marveling at all of the changes. There are several new buildings, a new dorm, and a huge expansion to the Children's Hospital. While there was so much change, there was also so much that had stayed the same. So many memories came flooding back.

Before leaving town on Sunday, I spent a few hours in my favorite coffee shop. I had so many emotions swirling around in my head; it was a mixture of happiness & sadness. I had so much time in college to do whatever the heck I wanted. Nobody to be responsible for or accountable to. A meal plan & people who did my dishes. I remember complaining (frequently) to my parents about being sooooo stressed or sooooo overwhelmed. I could spend all the time I wanted alone in coffee shops. I read books for pleasure. I TOOK NAPS, PEOPLE! What in the world was there to complain about?!

I have always struggled with contentment, constantly wishing for the next step. I loved high school, but couldn't wait for college. While in college, I dreamed about my first real job & eventually living on my own. When I was still single, I dreamed of getting married. When I was newly married, I dreamed of babies. You get the picture. Never satisfied. Never content with where I was at. Always wishing away time so that I could get to the next thing.

I think the biggest thing I am taking away from this weekend is the need to be fully present in the "right now". This season, with all my littles. I am truly in no hurry to see my babies grow up into big people who don't want to cuddle or stop mispronouncing words in the cutest ways. I know that diapers & midnight feedings & teething won't last forever. And I really do love where I am at right now.

I am so thankful for my time in Iowa City to reflect on all that the Lord has done in my life. College was when I truly go to know Jesus on a deeply personal level, and I completely fell in love with Him. I am just in awe of all that He has done & taught me since I first stepped foot on campus. I pray that I always see Iowa City as a refuge- a safe place- a sacred city.